Now my arms swing when I walk
with this thin film
that separates me from the world
it’s relaxing
takes the load off

I am worried
what have I shed?

This disconnect
this dislocation from everything in my life

knight’s move existence
hanging off at a right angle

seeing fine, but what have I shed?

If that connection is no longer there
is there a desire that goes along with that?
A desire to be a part of things
that pushes you
be interested
ingratiate and integrate

but when all that’s gone
and all that you want is yourself
can you still reach out?
Does it take learning

now cynical
no relationships
just a monster
a monster with nowhere to be